Today was the last day of Term 2 bah , i bet .
Everyone should be very happy happy laeve to school to go for the June holidays .
But , i think everyone's mood like kana spoilted after Recess bah ?
Or only me nias ?
Idk .
In the morning , laughed with them .
Morning assembly , laughed with YaoRong and _____ [ idk how to spell his name ] .
Recess , don know if even got laughed mah .
After that , MrChia went to our class .
I think got laughed bah ?
After that , she told me to see something , i saw .
Ah , mood is gone ~
I don understand seyy .
Gave her a chance to change , and she said she WILL change
But , its back to the normal .
"She wont change ." ; two persons told me this .
And , i totally damn agree .
She wont change .
Even if we give her so damn many chances , She wont change .
School dismiss , hers and my mood totally changed even more worse .
Never talk , never laugh .
While walking out of school , we talked to each other about what we felt excalty .
On the bus , told her what happened .
I said until cried .
Nobody knows , i think .
While when she and she cried in the food court and she nearly cried , people concerned .

I don understand .
A nearly 6 months-friendship , will lose to a nearly 1month-friendship .
Oh my gosh , what the bloody shit is this ?

I really really want to get back to the past .
The days , when she and me was like damn damn close .
Nobody can try to snatch me or her away .
But i think , she managed to snatch her away ?
At the first time we quarrelled . . .
"She did it ?" ; i was thinking that time . . .
She want to be with her , she some sort of like snatched her away .
Thats why she is sadd or even du lan ?
Idk .

She said she know her the most .
I asked her .
She said she is considered as the most know her well one .
But , i don think so .
She is trying to what ?
Act pity or whatever shit ?

Really wanted to scold badd words , but not at them .
Maybe myself bah ?
Such an useless thingy i bet ?
Lost all the true friends who started to trust me so much .
She said she finding a best friend , and no one could be one , maybe just her .
This sentence , really hurt/shocked me bah ?
But idk if she got kana hurt mah .
I need a best friend too !
Or maybe just a true friend or good one .
I don expect more .

She said i always with her laughing and joking , and it seems like i very close with her .
The answer is : No .
It really seems like .
But it is also really not .
Just want to joke with her to hide my feelings , but when not joking , she went to her .

Idk why i writing all these here , not trying to act pity or attract attention .
Cause to me , posting is just like writing a dairy
Only that it is a little bit quite different .
Sorry if i am like so staightforward here .
Thats why i use so many "her" and "she" but in different colours .
Thanks yous for people who made me laughed at Band , it is some sort of cheering me up too .
Anyway , lets say something happy now :
I can skip Marching cause must go my cousin death anniversary ! XD

Really want to go back to Canberra .
Still remember those days , when we stayed back at school
We will go the mini-mart together to buy Maggie Mee , then laughed together .
We will together scold TCB .
The days we went to Lanjut .
Those laughters .
And , we went to the walk at the jungle together .
Where we screamed when those fake ghosts scaring us .